Laugh at it . Got time, then think over

Now I am 22 and I do understand

2012-02-09T21:52:00.000+05:30

Four years ago, I would have never understood this. But now I know that I hate driving though I love traveling.

My native place have great public transport facilities that connects
most streets to the commercial areas with frequent and cheap rides. To add to the facilities provided by buses and train, there are also economical taxi services that even encouraged shared or pooled travel.

Every time I travelled using the public transport, the traffic conditions were least of my concern. I could be talking with the fellow passengers, observe the outside world, reading some onscreen content or taking a nap. Now it is all taken away from me.

Living in the suburbs of the city forces me to drive the family car to go virtually anywhere away from my home. More the fellow passengers who do drive themselves very well, more troublesome the driving experience. Earlier I had to carry the bags, backpacks, toddlers etc. only to the close by ride-stops. Now I need to take them to faraway parking lots or high-up in the multi-level parking garages. I fail to understand how people find driving their own vehicle more convenient way of travel.

While I travel, I used to interact with the world around. Now, while I drive, I just interact with the flashing lights on adjacent vehicles and traffic lights.

Everyone needs to leave home for sometime

2011-11-11T10:30:00.001+05:30

I got my first chance to live few years all by myself, away from home, during my undergraduate education. I feel sympathy to people who spend all those years of college life being a day scholar (day pupil). Being away from home allows you to live the life the way you wanted than spending it the way others let you to or choose for you. You are likely to find people who could make you realize that you had everything you wanted but nothing you really needed. They could make the BIG change in your life. Besides, it gives the opportunity to understand yourself much better. Education is not just about doing some dedicated works, attending classes and evaluations. It is also about exploring and grooming your own talents for survival.

Lucky me, I got my fair share. I hope any undergraduate student/ school kid or anyone with a next of kin younger kid, reading this note, would consider the idea of letting them to stay at campus (atleast) during their undergraduate program. Dear parents, besides your undivided attention, care, shelter and tasty food, your kids needs much more - including few chances to face failures and learn themselves to survive and earn respect. Your kids do not get all of these experiences if they were always with you.

A Journey

2011-10-16T14:08:00.001+05:30

One of my recent journey, for which I was alone for most part, made me feel quite different. Maybe it is because I had many free hours to 'think about things'. During most journeys, all I am concerned about is reaching the destination with less trouble. But this time, the events were more important than the destinations. Maybe that is the reason I am writing this now.

some (un)usual thoughts/events:

Curtained 3rd A/C Side Lower berth seat - felt like being in my private office.
Spent an evening figuring out a place to stay for that night in an unknown town. Though mobile maps and knowing the local language made me feel confident, I had to continue gambling. Because my experiences were inadequate to really determine the intentions behind every advice or suggestion given by total strangers, for my queries. A visit to few lodges revealed quite different facts. Lucky that I had enough time and some good reasons in mind to get out of there easily.

Day 1:
Security personal : calm, considerate, with good suggestions.
me : thankful, humble, cheerful.

Day 2:
Security personal : irritating, insulting, stubborn, authoritative.
me : arrogant, fighting for my stance, mischievous,
complaining.

I had to make sure that the documents and possessions (and money at hand) should never get the attention of people around. Since most of these could serve for lucrative purpose for others, I had to be careful. Those documents reaching wrong hands were more dangerous than invalidating them. But I had to remain calm as if my bags contained just some clothes and study materials of a college student.
Slept like a kid for many hours while the room door was wide open. But at another instance, even when all luggages were stowed securely, I remained sleep awake, alert like a watchdog.
When I was in real quandary about deciding the places to visit, people to meet, the following rationale helped me: " Present your cheerful face to those who expect your smile and presence, than surprising someone who never expected anything. "
At many occasions we need to either blend in or stand out from the crowd. When I really wanted to blend in, the stealth practices observed in movies, games and read somewhere were not good enough. Mostly because my partners' curiosity, oratorical skill or lack of sense of surrounding made us easily identifiable. Infiltration is a tough task when done with a group with no PREP.
Attempt to get the same service/ product from a familiar person turned out to be quite different. My delight of buying things, like in past, was stolen when they expressed that they are not selling it to me, rather giving it for their delight.
Too many attempts to make a phone call to different numbers failed. The recipients were not returning the call. I didn't knew their schedules well. For about an hour the practice continued (thinking they were having a nap) and then my mobile's battery went low. With virtually no idea about where would I crash that night, I saw the public telephone unit in the next shop as my lifeline. Tearing a piece of paper from the letter pad, I hastily jotted down few contact numbers from my dying mobile phone. Before the phone died, I did send some 'distress' messages mentioning my location to few, who might be able to reach me. Luckily they reached after a long wait. Normal order re-established.
An opportunity to walk an extra mile with old friends in their new world. It became much easier later to think like they do and be more sensible.
Confused whether you became so predictable or others became smarter.
Deciding to remain 'un-decided'.
The day's seems to be have some extra hours. I was doing more than what I thought I would, when I had a bunch of friends with me.

These 2 thoughts/ quotes came across my mind over and over:

" Everybody starts out with a full bag of luck and an empty bag of experience. The trick is to fill the bag of experience before the luck runs out. " - someone
" A journey is like marriage. The certain way to be wrong is to think you control it." – John Steinbeck

A wholesome gift of experience and wisdom

2011-04-13T10:10:00.000+05:30

" I made this [letter] very long, because I did not have the leisure to make it shorter." - Blaise Pascal

Past 4 years of my life brought into me significant changes since I was able to taste the essence of the real world a little more that what it used to be. This memoir includes some of my personal feelings, conclusions and some excellent advices and remarks from my friends and dears (including some latest ones). I don't see this as my personal portfolio but a collection of gifts that many of you gave me by sharing your time and thoughts with me, during the span of 4 long years. Here it goes:

Memories are the most valuable things we ever remember. When every corner, every lane and in short, every yard of the place make you flood you mind with memories, you are really in the final stage of cultural adaptation, 'FEEL AT HOME'. But I would like to walk you through another trail. At the end of the day, what really counts is not about how many minutes have you been building the greatest moments of your life or how many vibrant memories did you accumulate, rather how did you respond to various instances and did you make sure that you did ignite the light of hope and satisfaction in all who deserved it from you.

The first year at NITC didn't make me feel much different from what I really felt like when I was in Pre-University/ Plus Two. The main difference everyone cite is about the new sets of friends and separation from home. Since I did part with my Mom an year before I joined here, knowing that I wouldn't be able to meet her in less than 2 years, parting with my Dad, Siblings, Relatives and Home wasn't so intense since I knew that I could reach out for them once in a few months. But the second year presented me with a whole new environment. Now we live with someone you choose to stay with, spend more time with people who do care more about you. But the important factor was FREEDOM. We were free to explore the green pastures we wanted and did understand that we did choose wrong choices at times, but the best thing to do is to find your interests where ever you landed on. Second year and third year seems quite similar in many aspects, but many feelings and deeds started to be more real and compassionate. The final year presented a lot more vivid pictures. Now we are all by our own. Our room, our world. No one is keeping an eye on you. I guess the society is more or less in order not only because there are rules but also because others are keeping a watch on us. So now we have absolute unrealistic freedom. Whether we sleep all day, play games, watch movies, videos, delve into the rabbit hole of internet, do our academic works or get out and spend time with your friends is all up to us to decide. You prioritize and do a judicious mix of all of these. I also am glad that I was able to figure out some time, occasionally, to be ' the guy who thinks about things ' and let myself stand in someone else's shoes and judge myself and think about some ways of self-correction. Some of these weird exercises helped, but some made me appear eccentric.

( I did try to focus only on 4 years of hostel life than the entire college experience, since I do not want to bring into picture the fallacies like Hasty Generalizations. )

When we leave this place, the best thing we should try to do is to take up with us all the good things we explored in us and nourish them well. At the same time, leave all those attributes which we really know as too bad for us to continue with. Some might argue that they had a reason to hold on to them, but when you leave here, you don't have a real reason worth of holding to it but just a worthless excuse for convenience. Someone once told me that I should behave well, else the name of my parents in my full name will also be brought into every trouble I make. Now we have a tag on us, since we graduated from NITC, so you have another additional responsibility, to safeguard the value of the tags and hence behave well.

Some of us might have at least slipped once under the influence of peer pressure and got your hand dirty with alcoholism, substance abuse or insomniac behaviors due to continued deprivation from sleeping. Everyone know that we ourselves maintain a well evolved versions of unsuitable vocabulary, verses, thoughts... in our mind so that we abstain from using them. Moreover we might have sometimes nourished thoughts which we don't want to share with others but really can't get out of our mind. We also do know the whereabouts and personal secrets of many of our friends and dears since they believed that it is safe with you. But when you go unconscious, your mind starts playing many crafty games and let you blabber or express the series of unrelated facts into inappropriate stories and many would be audience to it. The solution ? Don't go unconscious, intentionally. I always believe that the thoughts/ secrets and facts should always remain inside your mind and should only share those parts of it to someone to whom if you deny sharing it might lead them to real trouble.

" Trust and Credibility is like a piece of paper. Once crushed, it will never be perfect again. It retains the creases, so long as it exists "

Always try to express true feelings and tell truth. The benefit of it is that you don't need to remember what you have told before. But at times, it seems inconvenient and hurting. Then you should not resort to the art of lying, rather go for the art of organized presentation of truth. So you let others know why you really did something wrong while you weren't suppose to be, but at the same time make sure you don't walk the same way again and hurt them with your truthful description.

Every individual is unique in their thoughts and ways of deriving happiness. Even if there is a common goal to achieve, everyone attempts for it in different ways. But in the venture to achieve these goals, you would be really helped and even the small setbacks in your attempt doesn't demotivate you much, if you are going ahead with a group you are comfortable with. So friendship and accomplice is all about how to satisfy you personal interests independently without going apart. It also calls for some care and concern and selfless work.

What would you do when your good isn't good enough? A wise man once replied that you should keep in company with people who are wiser and intelligent than you and make them feel lucky to be with you. Make them feel lucky with you, how? Even the smartest guy/ gal is not perfect. When you get help from others, make yourself feel worthy of it and share all your inferences with them and if there is at least one of those which they never knew, you made them feel lucky !!!

" No matter how much is there for you to complete or how less time do you have, do value others time. "

If anyone ask me what was the hardest thing I learned when I was here? It is to look into someone's eyes and smile and feel truly happy. Also to forgive myself at times. It is a well known concept that guilty consciousness needs no accuser. I wanted to share this with you since it takes a long time to understand by ourselves, rather it is much easier when someone lets you know about it. Sometime in your life, you might or did have chosen to turn a blind eye or dumb ear to someone or thought it might be better if you left them alone and focused on what you should be doing. But sometimes it happens that you intentionally or unintentionally do a follow-up on that character and get to know that they have been through a series of unfortunate events. Then your mind starts to kick-in. When you look at every achievement you made there after, it hurts. You starts to think like you wouldn't have made this achievement if I did not reserve my time for my own needs, rather would have spend my time and energy to help the one I left back. But believe it or not, you should keep yourself advised that you were not the only reason for all that happened to that individual/ group, rather you just happened to be there and played a part, which someone else would have played if you weren't there. You should accept this fact and move on, else it takes long time before you understand it yourself and then it might be too late for you make a change.

When the events are more bizarre and the person in concern was too close to you, it takes a lot more time to accept the facts and to move on. Soon you might loose your dynamism and hope and become more diffident and over-cautious. It also makes you decide to stop doing everything you once enjoyed and lived with. If it become very inconvenient for you to continue, look towards the society. Instead of bundling up achievements for your own that hurts you more, you can continue working for the well being of the society. If you still can't cope up with those, do turn to charity. Your true character is most accurately measured by how you treat those who can do nothing for you. It is not the money/ surplus luxuries that you should focus to provide, but give them your time. Your time, is the biggest gift you could ever give. It is something which someone can't replace with anything or give back in a paper-cheque. Once you starts to feel yourself comfortable and ready to continue, pursue your real goals. Now it seems like you have JUST POSTPONED YOUR SUCCESS rather than putting an end to it.

If someone ask, what did I really failed/ missed to achieve/ acquire after these eventful 4 years, I would say, NOTHING. I came in here not with the search for a particular item/ person/ achievement, but with the attitude to accept as it come and give others a richer experience. I would say, my friends, my family, teachers and every element of NITC helped in it and gifted me in various ways.

Two Tales.

2011-04-01T15:18:00.000+05:30

Recently I had a chat with one of my friend, which got extended to few hours of discussions, arguments and some simple conclusions. The topics also included about how one start to feel about what to do and what not to do when we proceed towards the end of the ongoing academic course. In between, I did recollect about the ' Two Tales' which were told to our class on the first day of this 4 year undergraduate course. When I shared it with him, he told that if he ever had heard this before, he would have tried few times to answer the questions it asked and would have had a richer life experience and outlook. At least now he seems to have felt enlightened. So I thought about sharing it with others. Here it goes:

Stay Focused

    It is about a flashlight, which did not have the bulb mounted in a reflector. Since the bulb protruded out with no surrounding cover, it did illuminate the entire region close to it with a faint light. But once someone did put a mirror reflector around the bulb. Now the light was available only to a smaller region, but it was bright. Many things which were not visible earlier started to became visible.

note: Everyone has the desire to be good at everything, but can't be best in everything. When you have many choices, take it with a pinch of salt. If you feel any of your choices to be incoherent with what you are looking forward to, feel free to drop it and go with the rest. " Be good at something, that makes you valuable" - Randy Pausch.

The Real Goal

    You went to a new place, where only few spoke your language. You asked the directions from many, got help from many and continued the journey. There were some rough terrain to travel, few sleep less nights, many anxious moments, many acquaintances, few friends, many opportunities to know more about you, develop yourself, help some strangers, take some risk and finally you reached a region with few shops and craftsmen. You spend some cash to buy some cloth and then went to a seamster. You managed to adjust with him, while he tried to take the necessary measurements and he is going to make you the finest dress, which was the main reason why you wanted to start this expedition. All you need to do now is to spend some more time, focused on the main goal, patiently giving your opinions and efforts, while the dressmaker crafts the dress in a way that is best suiting to you. At the same time, you came to notice that there will be a carnival in the town, which happens very rarely. But it will be the time for you to return back from this "new place" when the boisterous celebration ends. Either you can stay some more time with the tailor and get what you came for or forget about the main reason why you are here and pick up some rugs, one-size fits-all type and attend the much hyped merrymaking.


    The professor continued: " Ask yourself these question, once in a while, not to feel disappointed or frustrated about what you have lost, but to understand that there is still hope and all you need to do in the remaining time, though very less, is to stay focused and try to embrace your real goals."

We part with Cheers, until we meet again.

2011-03-15T02:30:00.000+05:30

If someone is to die tomorrow or the day after, I might have a tear or more on my cheek, but if you are about to leave for a while we still have the hope to see again in future, I will have wishes for the best in my lips and a smile to cheer you up.

If you happen to have chances to talk to elders who left their Alma-mater or college or their homeland to perform various duties of life or pursue their interests, they would love to share the joy in their heart explaining how they nourished their memories and how much delighted they were when they met or interacted with some or all of their friends or dear-ones after few years at various expected or unexpected venues and how stupid it was to spend too many days, months or years immediately after the separation in the long past, just grieving. It is always up to you to spend your remaining, greatest moments of life either lamenting or nourishing the hope for the future.

To validate my opinion I would like to ask you whether you still feel home-sick like the way you did when you first parted your home for a while. It doesn't mean that you lost your attachment to your home/ family, but you learned to understand the realities of life and started to live by it. You now need to become more mature and not to behave like the kid you once were.

p.s: Couple of years back, like few of my friends do right now, I did also used to get disappointed, many a times, thinking about how inevitable were the joy of relationship and pain of separation. But in all those times, I was able to overcome those thoughts and feelings when I thought like the way I described above. It feels really justified to me, as of now. But if you have any other dimension to add to it to make me get to know the hidden realities which I missed so far, feel free to express it online/ offline.

People come into your life, either for a reason or a season

2011-02-16T04:48:00.000+05:30

During the walks of life, several people came into my life, but many are now not in my canvas. It has been in the back of my mind for several years that why I keep loosing the warmth which once existed and never bothered why. Now I seems to have an explanation worth holding on to and maybe, worth sharing too. The common one that I kept seeing was the change of relationship from friendship to acquaintance.

Consider this line of thought, which we sub-consciously nourish: " Why should I try hard to be a friend to whom it is hard to reach out, while I have many others at my reach who could also be good friends and I see similar is the case for you too. Why should I miss the moon light searching for a distant star. It is needed and worth it, only when there is no one out there for me/you to be with, which isn't the state now. So I like us to be JUST acquaintances, with no regrets. You are worth to be a friend for someone else in need, not for me, atleast for now. Though I see many opportunities, being a friend of you, I see this as my time to say 'pass' ". Also some old folk once said: "When everybody does what is good for them and the group, there will be harmony."

Whatever changes did happen, I strongly believe that we always keep the spirit of loyalty alive, but remain less cared and concerned about each other when they are apart.

p.s: If they remember you only when they could get some help from you, don't be disappointed to see them as opportunist, rather be delighted that your memory came into their mind and fueled their hope when no one else could.

Resolutions and Reforms.

2011-01-21T23:32:00.000+05:30

When the New Year arrives, the first thing someone would say after a pause and looking face-to-face is about their new set of resolutions. Maybe they stick to it, or not; I may not be later acknowledged, nor did I bother much. Quite recently, many of these types of statements started to appear in online updates significantly. Maybe it is because of the chance for greater outreach or just to keep up with the crowd. But something I really wanted to express is:

"The avoidance of resolutions/ reforms is just as psychotic as being attached to it".

In my opinions, the resolutions and intend for reforms must be an outcome of the individuals evaluation of their own deeds and thoughts. Going for it need not be restricted to New Year Eve, but could be on your Birthday Eve, before any festivals or rituals you feel to be milestones in your life, or even could be on some sleepless night or lonely evening. The imagery that come to my mind is about placing the first button wrong when you try to suit up in your dress. If not cared to see it, but let your muscle memory to do the rest, you will figure it out only towards the end. So I see the self-evaluations, intend for reforms and resolutions are one's self-correction mechanisms. Heed to it.

Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending. To conclude, I would like to quote from my friend who cared enough to describe about a book he read few weeks ago:

" You are not a sinner who did some good deeds to fit into the crowd;
But a saint who did some mistakes unknowingly or unintentionally".

So cheer up. Rise and Shine..

Some may speak-out, others may not

2010-12-18T12:15:00.001+05:30

Respect the experienced elders unconditionally.. They may not speak-out about all they know, but act sensibly based on all they know. Sometimes you would be lucky enough to feel it. Another time, able to only see it , or only to hear about it. I guess this conversation explains a lot about that..

Movie: Good Will Hunting

(Time:00:45:07)

old man: You've never been out of Boston?

young man: Nope.

old man: So if I asked you about art,
you'd probably give me the skinny...on every art book ever written.

Michelangelo?

You know a lot about him. Life's work, political aspirations. Him and the pope. Sexual orientation. The whole works, right?

I bet you can't tell me what it smells like in the Sistine Chapel. You never actually stood there and looked up at that beautiful ceiling. Seeing that.

If I ask you about women, you'll probably give me a syllabus of your personal favorites. You may have even been laid a few times. But you can't tell me what it feels like to wake up next to a woman... and feel truly happy.

You're a tough kid.

I ask you about war, you'd probably throw Shakespeare at me, right? Once more into the breach, dear friends. But you've never been near one.

You've never held your best friend's head in your lap...and watch him gasp his last breath lookin' to you for help.

If I asked you about love, you'd probably quote me a sonnet, but you've never looked at a woman and been totally vulnerable. Known someone that could level you with her eyes. Feelin' like God put an angel on Earth just for you, who could rescue you from the depths of hell. And you wouldn't know what it's like to be her angel, to have that love for her be there forever.

Through anything. Through cancer.

And you wouldn't know about sleepin' sittin' up in a hospital room... for two months, holding her hand, because the doctors could see in your eyes...that the terms "visiting hours" don't apply to you.

You don't know about real loss, 'cause that only occurs when you love something more than you love yourself.

I doubt you've ever dared to love anybody that much.

I look at you. I don't see an intelligent, confident man.

I see a cocky, scared shit-less kid.

But you're a genius. No one denies that. No one could possibly understand the depths of you.

Publish Guy v Update Guy

2010-12-10T13:04:00.000+05:30

When you would easily/hastily be hit with replies,comments and likes/dislikes, you don't need to publish your short and precise conclusions or abstract comments, because it would only attract many clueless comments, ??'s and natural responses from many reckless social network members who are ready to go to any extreme to be Mr. Popular.

If someone takes up the chance to respond only after thinking about it for enough amount of time and only after they have their views to add to it, then it leads to creating a conducive atmosphere for growth. But if there is a hell lot of activity to the message tread, figuring out the sensible one is like the 'search for a needle in a haystack'. Even I would avoid posting a reply in such an environment, since the deluge of senseless notification will start to spam my inbox. So choose your domain sensibly.

The update guy must always be 'in plain English', if English is the language meant to be used. Its about getting the information dissemination done much faster and to larger population.

What ever I could figure out, based on my own observation and limited experience, is about considering the 'Lifetime' and 'Social Popularity'. The contents in blogs and online articles have maximum lifetime, followed by status messages and minimum for update messages, but the further follow-ups keep the earlier updates to be relevant, at times. The social popularity is maximum for update messages followed by status messages, while the blogs and articles need either a large group of followers or some publicity schemes to do any good.

p.s: untold-opinions are my own personal views. The majority would have varied perspectives, so do post you replies, with confident declaration or affirmation but avoid aggression.

Get back into your shoes and run the normal course.

2010-11-22T20:18:00.000+05:30

When some emergency or serious need make you change tracks and run in the fast lanes, you start to achieve milestones. Even when the need ceased, you continued on the same track because of the charm of the greatness the rewards did bring to you. But you are missing a great portion of your life to remain in the swift track, but you still try to manage. The whole world then start to believe that you really belong to the fast track and only explored it lately. But only now you start to feel that you are distancing a lot more from what you are and what you can achieve. The attempt to make both the ends meet start to fail. The law of nature "every system under-performs when it is overloaded" starts to show up.

The dominoes start to fall one after another. All you could try is add more blocks at one end while the toppling proceeds from the other end. Until when can I continue in the same track? When should I really take the track change? All I could figure out now is, soon enough I shall start taking away few blocks from the domino assembly so as to isolate the rest, prevent the standing ones from falling and proceed building the rest in the way it is meant to be.

Violence in a Sleepless Night.

2010-11-13T11:02:00.000+05:30

When you hit a mosquito in your vicinity and see a splash of blood on your hand, you don't feel pity for the puny creature but the satisfaction of eliminating the creature that was sucking your blood and causing you trouble.

Even the proponents of non-violence won't sue me for this, I think, because they even might do the same to a disturbingly singing flying object (unless you consider something to be a creature, the action seems quite normal like closing a dripping tap)

Technical overdose I

2010-08-12T01:46:00.000+05:30

In Vector Algebra, one of my favorite topic in Engineering Course, there is a concept called basis elements which are used to completely describe some entity. In the Theory of Approximation, topic to which I am still a novice, one uses some set of preferred estimators to approximate an entity.
These 2 approaches triggered me to find some analogy in life:

' When you try to define/describe me based on what I appear to be in recent times in which we met and had interactions, you might be seeing my projections in the good directions of perceptions. But that does not completely define/describe me unless the inevitable non-good directions are considered. If you neglect the latter, then it is not the actual me, but someone you love * '

* "No one is perfect, unless you are in love"

Need for Absolute Correctness.

2010-02-06T16:36:00.000+05:30

We all agree that the opinions/views/suggestions are to be appreciated in a group discussion, the one which involves the correct procedures are to be considered during a design and only the one which gives the correct result is to be accepted in the case of end products. But we should not analyze in the reverse direction, i.e, accepting anything that gives a correct result blindly is not apt, since the same entity may be yielding incorrect result under different circumstances if the design was not based on proper concepts.

When we consider the regime of art, behavior ... , it is a picture drawn in a different canvas. There we can't classify anything to be absolutely correct or completely wrong. So did we define human qualities, different scales of grading and maybe 'FUZZY LOGIC'.

Returning back to the domain of Art of Engineering; we usually don't want a satellite launch to compete with the fireworks at Disney land. The theme of it is to deliver the payload to its destination and not to explode in the sky. When the amount of investment: life, time or money is huge, we do emphasis on Absolute Correctness ( which I perceive to be the one that does not contradict the laws of nature, that confirms with the existing concepts, one's conscience and which holds all these to every tiny segment it is composed of).

When do we have to impart the idea of absolute correctness?

Not too late, because it may often hurt the feeling of many who were successful but not absolutely correct so far, in most of their works.

In my opinion, it should be from the very first step when a person takes in pursuit of being a member of the Engineering Society. Rejection of incorrectness in procedures and results with no relaxation need to be emphasized right from the design and analysis time onwards, which is preceded by the discussion part where all ideas are allowed.

In Nutshell, To profess and perpetuate the culture of allowing/ignoring errors due to carelessness and negligence in the sole pursuit of glory is to be thoroughly discouraged.

'Lost information is unfortunate, but incorrect information is disastrous'

But we have to also retain in the back of our mind about the fundamental concept: 'Nothing is perfect and all qualifiers are relative', but still it is possible to notch up the absolute correctness asymptotically with a set of coherent mind working on it.

' None of us is better than all of us' & hence the need for good team work.

How much time do I really have to make a change?

2009-11-23T19:22:00.002+05:30

Laziness, the state of security over living in the future, the solid shelter and ever satisfied wishes
- how evil am I?

All I do is what I wish and not what I am supposed to do. It was like that for the past few years. The rules of obedient behavior,being regular and punctual in doing duties, sincere dedication to achieve the goals of life and all such concepts vanished into no where.

Always in the state of mind that I will be safe even when the world is on the competitive spirit, or rage, is giving me imaginary wings on which I am floating. I do belong to the lower world, where everyone hopes that their all desires will be met without significant efforts.

But why am I not alerted by the fact that whatever state I am now is because of the immense efforts of my parents, big fortune from the ancestors, selfless deeds of many associated friends and dears and most importantly, the GOD's endless blessing, which others calls as "Luck". How do I survive when any of these factors that supports me fails at any instant in my future, which may even be in the next minute.

I now understand that I am still like a kid, not knowing how to live,how to stand up alone and be concerned about my duties to help others who are falling past me. I hope the world is ideal and my path is safe. I was building my castle in thin air. Till now, it is standing tall because someone is holding its foundation which I seldom cared. But when they are now more, who would I be? The unknown, the seen and the unspoken? A big failure? Some may pity, others may criticism.

How could the whole scenario be changed?
Looking back at the past, I am getting few answers. The academic achievements at school, the good work done to community, the existence as a person of good morale and behavior are some of jewels that I could figure out to be the one which stays. But no one talks about the achievements I made in the virtual world; about the hours I carelessly slept while I was supposed to be awake, alert and responded; about the worthless stuffs that only helped to kill time and only brought boredom.

Which track am I in? Where am I heading to? With all the opportunities, with all the capacities, How do i utilize each slice of my precious time.

Will I be called anything better than a "LOSER",if I die past this minute?

Slow Reader

2009-08-12T18:44:00.000+05:30

While Purchasing notebook for the new semester, I saw many kinds of notebooks among which "Classmates - Expressions" from ITC Limited caught my attention. It was because the front page portrayed a picture of a bunch of people participating on a mountain climbing expedition. A caption beneath it,which was a well known quote, captured all my attention.
It said :

" The race is not won by the swift, but by those who keep on running "

I am a kind of slow reader and a lazy reader. Moving images and visuals impressed me more. ' Pen and Paper are my best friends' is no way suiting to me. Thoughts, opinions, suggestions and observations resulting from day to day events substitutes ' Pen and Paper'.

Maybe the inanimate letters and symbols are incapable of fascinating me and hence I am not interested in going through them at my best speed. But the facts they reveal , the concepts they provide are the only reason why i still read.

My slow reading habit brought me many loses. Spending about an hour reading the newspaper seem funny to others. But I am unable to skim and scan and leave, but does every best to pay attention to details. Trying to read through a whole book few days before exam is never meant for me. Many exams have I written after reading few chapters of the whole book (got terrible results in few among them also).

But I don't feel slow reading to be too bad and a demerit to one's ability. As long as you continue reading and finding out enough time to complete the whole contents. As far as academics are concerned, a slow reader will be the best one on a long run. One who spend more time reading the first book on some new topic will find it very easy and a quick job to read and understand the second , third,.. books on the related topics, because so solid is his/her concepts. So never regret upon being a slow reader,but start early for a future goal and don't loose your determination in between.

'untold-opinions' are based on my own experiences, so may not be perfect and ideal view. Do find out your own conclusions to meet your scenario.

To CHOOSE which one to LOOSE

2008-10-11T00:18:00.000+05:30

(blog is mainly centered around "EXAM" as the main theme, only because i am going on through such phenomena, general topics are yet to follow)

Exams fast approaching.. Very few days left..Few subjects, I know I can manage; but for few ones, even i don't know the Lecturer's name.
What are my options ?

based on my experience, as well as the advices i got,
TO BE ON THE SAFER SIDE:

it is always necessary to have a brief knowledge of all the stuffs; since we don't gain anything by doing nothing.

to get rid of a large buildup of anxiety and tension, first go for the unknown topic. It is always better to get a brief outline about the facts in the topic from someone who already learnt it( thank God, you created a lot of guys for that ). After having an overall summary, go for a collection like a notebook which is a near encapsulation of all things, but not in great depth ( so you can read it and comprehend fast.)

After this, it is better to go and fine tune the one's which you are good at.

i visualize it as:

a wire made up of many firm and few loose strands is far better than an incomplete wire with all strong stands or one with many loose stands and few strong ones.

EXAM's in a LOSER's point of view

2008-10-10T23:02:00.000+05:30

("when it takes more words to express your thought, think again" - i know it, but seriously i couldn't do that lot of thinking to make the blog compact..)

What are exams?

A way of evaluating your level of understanding of a particular topic.

given that exams are conducted periodically, what are you supposed to do?

simple, learn periodically. (does it sound simple always? )

if i remain as ordinary person and not as a periodic learner (by nature or forced by circumstances), how would these exams look like?

some periodic phenomena which you are not interested in, but which affects a lot of your "something".

something ?
maybe grades, marks, credit points, status or standings,... (fill up with what ever)

in short :
whether you like it or not, you have to learn facts, figures (usually without knowing because of what they exist), and start losing all your other "somethings" (which are not listed above). is it?

so, we are in a trouble.

when i hear about an upcoming exam, i am bit worried. so i do all the planning, evaluate the best way to crack the nut.But, with all these things in mind, i remain lazy without even moving my little finger to prepare for it in the "others way".

" WAKE UP " - sleeping while reading, working is the common symptom of our lack interest or comprehension,if you are physically fit.

" THINK " - why should i lose the war in order to win few battles. so we may give priority to the events in the present theme, letting the funs, pleasures of other "CREATIVE" events to come to foreground later.

" There is always hope left " - if the first button of the coat is done incorrectly, mistakes are gonna follow till end, UNLESS WE TRY TO CORRECT IT in between., and it is possible from even now onwards.

WHO is PERFECT in this world: i didn't find one such person (Human ,not GOD). so when time is limited, cramming some topics is not a sin (but make sure you learn it properly later, or very soon if you find you have enough time ).

SLOW LEARNERS : how sure u are that the fast learners got all concepts you learned slowly ? actually you are the best. (But keep a watch on the time, when it is an eleventh hour scenario)

Every thing "ordinary" must have a humble beginning

2008-10-10T21:37:00.000+05:30

Blog is a buzz word in the present world..Did u read that blog? how awesome is his blog? real life quotes like this started flooding into my live chats when i put my first step in the present..so google about the phenomena was my first choice..'Blogs in plain english' in 'youtube' did very well to feed my apetite.

"Why." said the Dodo, "the best way to explain it is to do it" - Lewis Carroll, Alice's Adventures in Wonderland

in nutshell, I am a newbie. it is your support, comments and suggestions that helps me to improve.